Some people may wonder why we are wanting to adopt. Well here it goes... It's not because we can't have children of our own, because we do we have 4 beautiful children. It's simply because we fell in love with this little boy we saw on Reece's Rainbow. I don't know why I was on the website looking at children, but when I found his picture it was like looking at Ruben and haven't stopped thinking about him. I wonder how is day was if he ate if he has his own bed, and if he knows that somebody loves him. That somebody thinks he is perfect just the way he is! I pray that one day soon he will know that because we will tell him!! He has never had a family nor know the love of a mother/father. I want him to feel all the love Ruben feels every day. I love this little boy unconditional as I do my own kids. I feel god prepared us for him by sending us Ruben. I feel Ruben was sent to us to open our heart and mind to children with that extra something, that extra chromose that makes Ruben so special. Yes it was hard for me to see it when we first discovered Ruben has Down syndrome and yes I was angry with god, but god doesn't make mistakes and now my eyes and heart are wide open! I was angry because I didn't think it was fair for my child, my SON, to live his life feeling "different" but he's not different he is just like us! He just has an extra chromosome which he uses to give us extra love. I am glad that god has made all of this clear to me now. Now I want another child with that special chromosome to know just how great he his! This road may not be easy but I know it will be worth it, when I can hold that little guy in my arms and tell him just how much I love him. To see him smile, that smile that makes everything better, those almond eyes that see no evil and that heart so willing to love all.