Sunday, April 7, 2013

Our journey

We began fundraising a few days ago and are at our $300 mark today!! Thank you to all the wonderful people that have donated and to all that our praying for our family. We hope to soon be able to share the face of this adorable little boy that has stolen my heart. The adoption process is very long and involves a lot of paper work and patience. So far we have submitted our application to the adoption agency and a social worker to begin our home study. The home study can cost a little over $2000 and the commitment fee is $3500 once we have paid our commitment fee then we can share to you all the name and face of our future son. Then it will be more paper work. We are all very excited to begin this journey and save this little boy. Bring him into our own and show him what it's like to have a family. Mark and I have already thought about what it will be like to travel to his country to bring him to our home and show him his own bed!! I can't help but picture him smiling, which I have seen his smile in a picture, and feel sad because I don't know if he has anything to smile for right now. It's amazing to think he is there living his life day to day not knowing there is a family doing whatever they can to bring him into their family. He has no idea that there is wonderful, giving people helping us for HIM and that we think about him every day!! One month ago I saw his picture and now he is forever in my heart. We have set up a Paypal account if anyone would like to make a donation. anzadoptfund@gmail.com, prayers are also greatly appreciated!!!

Saturday, April 6, 2013

Adoption

Some people may wonder why we are wanting to adopt. Well here it goes... It's not because we can't have children of our own, because we do we have 4 beautiful children. It's simply because we fell in love with this little boy we saw on Reece's Rainbow. I don't know why I was on the website looking at children, but when I found his picture it was like looking at Ruben and haven't stopped thinking about him. I wonder how is day was if he ate if he has his own bed, and if he knows that somebody loves him. That somebody thinks he is perfect just the way he is!  I pray that one day soon he will know that because we will tell him!! He has never had a family nor know the love of a mother/father. I want him to feel all the love Ruben feels every day. I love this little boy unconditional as I do my own kids. I feel god prepared us for him by sending us Ruben. I feel Ruben was sent to us to open our heart and mind to children with that extra something, that extra chromose that makes Ruben so special. Yes it was hard for me to see it when we first discovered Ruben has Down syndrome and yes I was angry with god, but god doesn't make mistakes and now my eyes and heart are wide open! I was angry because I didn't think it was fair for my child, my SON, to live his life feeling "different" but he's not different he is just like us! He just has an extra chromosome which he uses to give us extra love. I am glad that god has made all of this clear to me now. Now I want another child with that special chromosome to know just how great he his! This road may not be easy but I know it will be worth it, when I can hold that little guy in my arms and tell him just how much I love him. To see him smile, that smile that makes everything better, those almond eyes that see no evil and that heart so willing to love all.